Illness

I am sitting in a hospital room...the third separate visit to the hospital by two of my family members in ten days. I alluded to challenges in my life right now and thus far, I have avoided talking specifically about these challenges. But, as my life continues to be hit by crises, I am wondering if I should not use this blog as a place to talk about these things as well. You see, illness has been a part of my life for as long as I can remember. I myself have not had a lot of personal disease to deal with, but it seems to surround those close to me. I can't say I have always been graceful in my response to this. In fact, lately it has been harder than ever to deal with the fact that so much of my life has included doctors, hospitals and all the collateral aspects of living with someone who is ill.

I tell myself that having something like this in my life is another way of growing through a lifetime. As shared previously, I believe that this is a prime reason for living...like an ongoing classroom. each lesson adds to the previous one and takes us on a journey of understanding another aspect of life, the universe and everything (thanks to Douglas Adams for providing a line that says it all). Of course, most of us don't actively live life as if it was a CEU credit, but nonetheless, I think we all get something from the experience. It is unfathomable how many paths there are, how many lessons we can learn, how many things there are to discover. I used to want to end up really understanding what this life is about, but as I get older, I realize that as a physical being, it probably isn't possible. All you have to do is look up at the sky, or even gaze at a tree to discover how complex the world around us is. I can't say that it doesn't annoy me sometimes that this is so. I have always hungered for understanding. I don't know why this is, but accepting that seeking this understanding is a infinite quest can drive me nuts. Oh well, as I said in the last post, that's life!

So, I think its time to end this post. I still have not received any comments to these entries. I would love some response, but what will be will be. I hope someone is out there reading this, and I hope it means something to someone. I know this bit about illness is something that is shared by many, both as a patient or as someone who lives with someone who is ill. It is a tough road for both and something that needs to be talked about more. I know how frustrating it has been dealing with the healthcare community for my wife and I over these past years. If there is someone reading this who can relate, feel free to talk about it here if you want. I know this blog is entitled Beyond a Lifetime, but I would like to think that what affects us here has something to do with whatever is beyond as well.

Take care...