I'm just not feeling very spiritual today

You know, I'm just not feeling very spiritual today. For lots of reasons, I really want to post something. It seems to make my day go better when I do. I get more hits on my website, and it helps keep me in a good frame of mind. For you Harry Potter fans out there, this is kind of like my Pensieve. Each post is a silver thread that keeps my brain from getting too cluttered.

But, I'm just not feeling it today. It is Friday, and I have a lot of work to do and next week is going to be really busy. And real life seems to trump my spiritual life more often than not. Or does it...

Are they separate, or does one feed the other? Could I have the thoughts that I do and want to continue making this life have some kind of meaning if I didn't have a "reality" that is rich with drama? Would I care as much about getting my book published if it was just to get it in front of people? Or, is the very real need to want it to make money as strong, or even a stronger motivator?

As with so many questions, there is no one answer. Just as I cannot truly explain why one day, life, and its purpose, seems so clear and the next day, I feel as if it is such a struggle. Just like this post is so much harder to write than the last one. Does that mean that this one has less merit? I think in our lives, we continually find ourselves running at different levels. What makes for a good day or a bad day? If I knew the answer to that, I suppose I would find a way to always operate at my "highest" level. But is it totally under my control and should it be? More questions than answers, but something inside of me says that if it was just up to me, than the journey would not be quite as interesting.

But, I could be wrong, because I'm just not feeling very spiritual today...