Standing out of your own way
Hi…hope you're still out there. So sorry for the long absence, life tends to get busier in the transition from summer to fall. School begins again and work heats up after, what should be a slower summer, but rarely is. I’m not even going to pretend that I have tried to write any entries. Thoughts have skipped through my brain, and skipped out just as quickly. It is possible that my dreams about this book are beyond my meager talents, but I am really trying to follow the spirit of my book and have faith and remember that not only can I not control all aspects of my life, but it is probably more beneficial if I don’t.
I can’t speak for anyone but myself, but it is incredibly hard to stand out of your own way. I had an experience last week that proved to me, once again, that I need to allow life to unfold around me and not try so hard to make things fit the way I think they should. Finding the equilibrium between taking initiative and letting life flow is like walking across a razor blade…even when you keep your balance it can hurt like hell…but I really believe that the results can produce something so beyond what we could ever envision for ourselves, that it is worth the effort. It all comes back to deciding whether we truly believe there are forces at work that are outside of our true understanding. For me, it goes back to when I was younger and just had to comprehend the answers to the big questions before I died. At some point I had to acknowledge that it was just too awesome an undertaking and something that was probably not possible from a physical world perspective. I realized that what I really needed to focus on was how to live this life as best I could, always keeping in mind that there was a bigger picture. The absence of a true blueprint of what that bigger picture is, only adds to the wonder, and puzzlement, of it all. Hope that makes sense!
Well, I’m going to wrap it up for today. I’ve got lots of other things to work on. By the way, I’ve started sending my book out to agents again, so if anybody is reading, wish me luck and think happy thoughts.
Till later (hopefully not much later)
I can’t speak for anyone but myself, but it is incredibly hard to stand out of your own way. I had an experience last week that proved to me, once again, that I need to allow life to unfold around me and not try so hard to make things fit the way I think they should. Finding the equilibrium between taking initiative and letting life flow is like walking across a razor blade…even when you keep your balance it can hurt like hell…but I really believe that the results can produce something so beyond what we could ever envision for ourselves, that it is worth the effort. It all comes back to deciding whether we truly believe there are forces at work that are outside of our true understanding. For me, it goes back to when I was younger and just had to comprehend the answers to the big questions before I died. At some point I had to acknowledge that it was just too awesome an undertaking and something that was probably not possible from a physical world perspective. I realized that what I really needed to focus on was how to live this life as best I could, always keeping in mind that there was a bigger picture. The absence of a true blueprint of what that bigger picture is, only adds to the wonder, and puzzlement, of it all. Hope that makes sense!
Well, I’m going to wrap it up for today. I’ve got lots of other things to work on. By the way, I’ve started sending my book out to agents again, so if anybody is reading, wish me luck and think happy thoughts.
Till later (hopefully not much later)
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